I wouldn’t be admitting this, but I didn’t want to go to church. I didn’t want to spend two hours in nursery. I thought about it and said I was t going.
It was also -27 Which is a good enough reason not to go anywhere.
Then when Willem asked if I were coming, I said no. He asked if I was sick and I lied and said yes.
Then when he got up it occurred to me that if I just go with the flow, not future reading, not having fear about being bored or lonely or missing seeing my friends, especially relief society where I learn how to be better, but just let life unfold according to His will and not mine, I’d be fine